...in her dirty dress

The Futility of LJ

Sun, 24 Jul 2005 02:04:53 GMT

I'm giving up on livejournal. I never get any comments and havent posted in ages (mainly because of that). I got a new philosophy.nu blog so if you're a friend and have a p.nu blog and want to be friends just comment and Ill add you. Be warned, an actual (or even fleeting) interest in my life is necessary and this isnt just a way to get me to comment on yours.

Exam Results!!

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 21:23:19 GMT

Just got my exam results and

I PASSED!!!

I got a pass in politics, a 2nd class honour in Social Policy and a 2nd class honour in Sociology (the exam that went so so badly!!) I'm absolutely thrilled, that's such a weight off!!
2nd year here I come!!!! :shock:

Back!

Wed, 04 May 2005 12:49:39 GMT

Ok Crying-Out appears to be back, despite Netrillium's incompetancy. Theres a big ranty post there if you want to read it!

Have my first Final Exam tomorrow morning, Sociology at 9.30. Very scared, havent started work today yet, gonna fail, panic.

Downtime

Mon, 02 May 2005 11:14:47 GMT

Crying-Out.net is down at the moment due to some moronic and totally unprofessional service from Netrillium, I'm in the process of renewing it at the moment but it'll be a few more days.

Collapse

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 22:11:10 GMT

Im home again. I'm bored, sleepy because of the drugs I took...and need to lie down. Trying to download all the Libertines songs I can. Got my birthday pictures and stuck them on my wall so I can see my friends while Im so so far away at home. Miss my baby.

Ehh...

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 14:42:35 GMT

Your Brain is 46.67% Female, 53.33% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female

You are both sensitive and savvy

Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed

But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

I seriously need to girly up...

Sun, 30 Jan 2005 17:04:13 GMT

New layout here, can't get this font to be any smaller so im sorry its ridiculously big. Feeling amazingly good today. I slept so so well and so im just in a great mood. Have a slight bit of a headache though so ill head back to the house soon, its too cold here for me. Went to the cinema twice this weekend, had dates with two gorgeous men (!). On Friday I went to see Alexander with Owen and last night I saw Closer with Aidan. Alexander was incredibly disappointing, this guy conquered a half of the known world, I had expected something a bit more..epic. Closer was brilliant, I really enjoyed it. And no Emily, I didn't see it with my Mum!!
Am getting very cold and headache is slowly worsening so I think ill head back to my warm house and prepare for my Politics test tomorrow which i've nothing done for yet!

Speak Up

Tue, 25 Jan 2005 18:20:38 GMT

Having issues with my roommate in that she's treating me like absolute crap for no reason. It started when she just decided to ignore me whenever her friends are around and then be really nice when its just the two of us. It happened before the Christmas break but I thought "new year, new mood" but no, its the same. So I just stopped talking to her and she's being a total bitch since, she always has her friends around and from the way they treat me too I'm sure she's bitching about me. I don't care to be honest its just if she didnt like me that's fine, but she can at least be civil, I mean we do have to LIVE together? I thought I left all this stupid secondary school bullshit behind but evidently she just had to bring it along with her. She's one of those incredibly loud 'me me me' people so I suppose it's to be expected. Damn I hate going home.

Survey says..

Mon, 10 Jan 2005 20:35:36 GMT

Found this at acidgloss.

1)If you were born outside of your era, when would you want to be born and why?
The 60's, I want to see the beginnings of liberation

2)If you ran a store, what would you sell/have?
Probably books or toys.

3)What part in a movie would you love to play?
The bad-ass rebel chick

4)In your opinion, why do people suck?
Because the world needs variety and without sucky people there wouldnt be any good people.

5)If you had your own state, what would you put on your new quarter?
A thumbs-up

6) What piece of furniture have you replaced the most?
Honestly dont know.

7)What instrument do you wish you could be more than great at?
I would have liked to learn the violin

8) Record, Tape or CD?
CD I guess though i download all my music now

9) What do you think would be the best concert ever? (max: 5 bands)
Maybe The Killers or the guys said Rhazel was amazing.

10) What's the best line in your favorite movie?
"But why is the rum gone?" (Pirates of the Caribbean)

13) What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever?
Cant think of anything

14) If you could only debate two topics the rest of your life, what would they be?
Gay/lesbian rights and the relationship between religion and state

15) Most jealous of....intellectually?
Probably one of my friends

16) What do you collect?
Cinema tickets

17)What is broken that you have, that you wish was fixed?
Well my new coat got cigarette burns on the sleeve, i wish that was "fixed"

18)What do you do when you're homesick?
Call home? It doesnt happen very often.

19) Why does this survey rock?
....

20) Story behind your sitename?
It was in a line to a Jimmy Eat World song something like "Where do you expect to go in your dirty dress?"

21)Current Favorite Article of Clothing?
My black cardigan

22)Line from the last thing you wrote to someone?
"i miss it dammit!"

23) A famous person you have met?
Nobody special.

24)Favorite way to waste time?
Internet, drinking, the usual

25)Last thing you bought yourself?
Mobile credit

Well that was entertaining now wasnt it kiddies?

Christmas Cheer

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 02:06:17 GMT

Merry Christmas everyone!!

(Or Happy December 25th if you dont celebrate Christmas)

Hope everyone got what they wished for and has a very happy and peaceful day xx

Low

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 14:36:53 GMT

I'm feeling pretty bad right now. It's like theres a huge weight over me and I can't get rid of it. Im suffocating with all the horrible stuff that's been happening to me and then with other bad stuff that's going on in everyone else's lives. It seems like the world is falling apart for everyone, me included, and im trying to fix everyone elses problems while mine get worse. I can't believe what's been going on in my life and how much ive been just thrown around by everyone, my friends included. On top of all this i have an exam to get through next week. I can't deal with this.

He said

Sat, 11 Dec 2004 13:44:33 GMT

"Everyone is always trying to figure everyone else out...that's why no one talks on the bus"

2004 Survey

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 22:45:09 GMT

Survey taken from Emily

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
Moved away from home, University, broken up with my boyfriend of two years

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I didnt make any but next year Im going to try and not worry so much about everyone else

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No

4. Did anyone close to you die?
No, thankfully.

5. What countries did you visit?
England

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
A lot more fun, 2004 wasn't such a fun year with the LC and break ups

7. What date(s) from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
9th June: Exams started
Can think of other events but not exact dates!

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Passing my exams and getting into Uni. Moving away from home, making lots of new friends.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Cant think of anything that big

10. Did you suffer any illness or injury?
Nothing big

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Recently, my new white coat which kicks ass and Im getting a laptop in the next couple of days

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Odd question..

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Can't think of anyone's

14. Where did most of your money go?
Drink..and some food - college life

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Coming to college. The Freshers Ball, Rodrigo y Gabriella, the Maidens debating final that my two friends were in and one of them won!

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Hey Ya by Outkast, It was the song of last new years!

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? MUCH happier
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner, ive lost lots of weight since i came to college but nobody really noticed to give me a hard time thankfully
iii. richer or poorer? Poorer, at least then i had SAVINGS!

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Drinking and having a laugh

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Being unhappy and crying

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
At home with my family

22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
No.

23. How many one-night stands?
None

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Buffy and Angel, Nip/tuck

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I dont hate anyone but have fallen out with someone which is a horrible feeling right now

26. What was the best book you read?
Can't even remember

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Rodrigo Y Gabriella!

28. What did you want and get?
To get enough points in my exams for college, to get on campus accommodation. To be happy

29. What did you want and not get?
To remain friends with some people

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Lost in Translation probably

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I was 18 but it was in the middle of Oral exams so I didnt do anything special

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I cant think of anything

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Just smart, lots of jeans and figure flattering outfits

34. What kept you sane?
Being able to write my thoughts in blogs and journals

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jake Gyllenhaal *drool*

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The American elections, I followed that pretty closely

37. Who did you miss?
Gav

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Not new but became better friends with the lads at college, made college lots of fun!

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
That relationships are so complicated

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
i've seen your flag on the marble arch
but love is not a victory march
it's a cold and it's a broken halleluja

Hits Again

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 22:24:41 GMT

I was silly to think I could outrun it. It hit me today, as hard and cold as it used to be. That hollow, empty feeling. It overwhelmes me every time. I had to just go home, I couldnt be around people like this. I suppose the distraction of college and new people couldnt last forever and I would have to go back to being who I really am. I dont know, I suppose I thought I could shake it off. It feels so awful.

The Presents Game

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 12:24:58 GMT

Made by Janet:
STEP ONE

Make a post to your LJ (or journal/blog). The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for ___ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.") The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.

If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.

STEP TWO

Surf around your friends list or other sites (or friendsfriends, or just random journals) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:

If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true. Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.

You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.

There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.
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MY LIST

1. Anything from my AmazonWishlist
2. Books, especially if its one you loved and want me to read.
3. Teddies or anything small and cute
4. Any kind of graphic present, avatars, wallpaper etc
5. DVD's, CDs...
6. A surprise

CONTACT INFO

Email: free_spiritie@yahoo.com
If you're sending something that needs to be mailed, email me for the address

Thanks to Janet for the game!

Tired

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 11:53:57 GMT

I hate Thursdays. My classes are so screwed up:

10am Politics
12pm Sociology
2pm Social Policy

I almost wish they were all just after each other so I could be done for the day!

The Ball was just amazing. I had such a good time and its *always* nice to be able to get all dressed up. You could tell the boys were just delighted with themselves when they put their tuxes on. Ill write a full account soon, have to run to my Sociology about 2 minutes ago!

Strauss Ball

Thu, 25 Nov 2004 11:50:20 GMT

I can finally breathe a sigh of relief after such a busy day! Five of us are going to the Strauss Ball tomorrow night. Its organised by the L&H, the UCD debating society. It's actually a ball, complete with tuxes and gowns. Originally it was myself, Luke, Laura and Aidan going and then Aidan txted me last night to say he had no money to pay and couldnt go. I talked to Luke today and we decided it was just not possible that he couldnt go. Aidan and Luke are finalists in the Maidens Debating competition that the L&H are running so for no other reason that that, they deserve both to be there! So today when Luke and I convinced our other friend, Owen to come...well that just sealed it, Aidan had to come. So Luke and I played puppet masters today dealing with the society to keep tickets and places and other people to get money off to subsidise Owens ticket. We split the cost of Aidans between us and eventually by 3pm today we had everyone sorted. I for one am very proud of us for not only getting them to go (and spend €65 on a ticket) but then for arranging it so they could get places and tickets, even if they have to pay back later. I'm really looking forward to it, its like the Debs all over again but really fancy. Ill report back after the night!

Light Reading...

Sat, 06 Nov 2004 15:32:09 GMT

Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
coffee smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
Twenty-nine pearls in your kiss, a singing smile,
coffe smell and lilac skin, your flame in me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you

How our love will blow it all away.
Such a thing of wonder in this crowd,
I'm a stranger in this town, you're free with me.
And our eyes locked in downcast love, I sit here proud,
Even now you're undressed in your dreams with me.
I'm only here for this moment.
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
How our love will blow it all away.
I know the tears we cried have dried on yesterday
The sea of fools has parted for us
there's nothing in our way, my love
Don't you see, don't you see?
You're just the torch to put the flame
to all our guilt and shame,
And I'll rise like an ember in your name.
I know, I know,
I know everybody here wants you.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you.
I'll be waiting right here just to show you
Let me show that love can rise, rise just like
embers.
Love can taste like the wine of the ages, babe.
And I know they all look so good from a distance,
But I tell you I'm the one.
I know everybody here thinks he needs you,
thinks he needs you
And I'll be waiting right here just to show you.

- Jeff Buckley - Everybody Here Wants You

Halloween Happy!

Sat, 30 Oct 2004 19:55:37 GMT

Right now im just avoiding doing my Social Policy essay. Ive spent the whole weekend alone, at home. I have to say im liking not having my parents nagging at me but there's nothing big going on here. I got sick again during the week and this weekend Im just trying to recover and be healthy and ready for college again. Tomorrow night is Halloween woo! I'm going back to Dublin early tomorrow. I *so* hope that there's something going on tomorrow night. I've been killing myself trying to think of a costume because its always fun to dress up! I went as a witch last Wednesday to the Halloween Ball but there were a lot of witches at that party so i want to be different. I didn't have time to buy a proper costume but I finally decided today. I'm going to go as a proper lady. I've got a corset, a skirt with a type of train at the back and a fan. Everyone always calls me "one of the lads" so Its a totally different thing for me. I'll have my hair up and curled bangs. Hopefully it'll look well anyway! Halloween rocks!

New Livejournal

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 23:16:20 GMT

Ok im going to enter the last couple of entries from my private blog here and add them as friends only entries so if you want me to add you as a friend just leave a comment. Please bear in mind im only new to LJ!!